| ..this is the deal.! |
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...i happen to like 2 guys and
they both like me.. and and
i dont know what to do...
..damon told me that he liked
me and i told him that i liked
him too.. and and i ended up
having sex twice with fish (a
guy i met through damon) ..i mean
i like fish but i dont wanna
break his heart... i told damon
that i ended up having sex with
fish and he didnt say anything..
...and then the next thing i know
im making out with damon and and
i just like damon better but i dont
know how to tell fish that.. and plus
i've known damon for 4 yours and i've
known fish for about a total of a
week and a half or something...
..so i feel more comfortable with
damon... ..but fish and i connect
very well together.. so i dunno..
any suggestions..?
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[26 Dec 2006|02:50pm] |
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about a guy that i have recently met..
...he is cute and sweet and caring
toward me... ..but i just think he's
a little more into me than i am with him..
...like i dont want to fuck things up..
...but at the same time i just dont know
what to do.. ...i have been hurt so many
times but i dont wanna fuck this
"thing" we have going right now..
..im not really sure what to think or
feel and i dont want to hurt him...
..he does make me feel good though..
...but still.. ...im confused about this
i suppose and their is actually a lot
going through my head right now...
...so on that note.. ...ummm i suppose
just try and help me figure this one
out...
peace+love...
-Anna-
♥
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| ...so yeah... an update on life... |
[12 Dec 2006|04:36pm] |
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...glassjaw.. ...kiss.kiss.bang.bang.. |
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...i have nothing to hide... deal with this..
...anywho, so there is a lot going on
at the moment.. ...im in bama
living with my dad and it's great
but my uncle is here and he pisses
me off... ..he already gipped me
$20 bucks... ..man $20 buck is
$20 bucks... ..you dig?? ..i wish
he was somewhere else instead of
living on our couch... ..it's annoying!
..and he needs to go some place else..
..."get a fucking job the inside of
my mind yells to me secretly about him"..
..i wish he would change... my dad
and i are in this together how we
hate him and if he dissappeard no
one would care... ..it's sad but he
did it to himself.. ...whatever,
thats his own fucked up life that
he is living... ..not mine...
..and for my supposid best friend... well,
lets just say that she is a nightmare..
...fuck her man.. ...like i dont get why
i have to constantly call her and ask
her to hang out.. ...and when we do hangout..
all she wants to do is invite guys with
us... ..finally i told her that she was
attention starved because she is simply
that.. ...i flat out told her that she needs
to stop basing her life on how many guys and
how many times she has sex... ..and i told
her that she might get aids and die and that
there was no reason to get huffy with me
because i was just giving my honest analysis
of what i think she is doing wrong and that
guys don't want a slut they want a lady...
am i right?? ..and i told her to stop
complaining that she's not getting any
attention... guys don't want a weak girl...
they want a confident woman... ..i swear
shes like clueless or something...
...like hello.. ..wake up!! ...i hate
stupid people!!
...and lately i have gone over to eric
and jc's house.. ...they are pretty cool..
...but one night out of the ordinary eric
asks me to go to a bar or whatever and
invites me out to hang... ..but jc invites
me to his bedroom to give me a massage
instead.. ...and i end up doing something
retarded i know.. ...but i am human..
...and i am sometimes shallow. ..anyway,
so i end up going with jc to get a massage
and by this time i suppose eric is pretty
much pissed to he leaves to go out with out
me... ..so then later jc and i cuddle as time
goes on in his bed watching family guy and
then he starts teasing me and i end up
giving him a bj... ..no normally i wouldnt
do such activities.. ...but any leo that
is as horney as i was would have..
...but whatever.. ...then the next
day i get a message from eric saying what
i did with jc was completely wrong...
..basically i got lectured by a guy i
dont really know that well... but whatever..
..he said that jc ran his mouth..
...crazy life, right??
..but i lovce it and i am who i am
and i dont give a fuck!! ..i dont
like bullshitting with people!!
♥
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| me.. perfect example... |
[25 Sep 2006|12:43pm] |
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Daily Extended
September 25, 2006
If you're looking for a sign indicating that you're progressing in the right direction in your life right now, just look in the mirror. Don't waste your time looking for physical changes -- you won't find any. What you should be looking for instead is that subtle glow of confidence. Deep inside you, it's there. All you need to do is pull it out ... encourage yourself to see how gifted and special you are. Other people see it, and it's high time you saw it -- and believed it.
(MY COMMENTARY)
...this is what i have goin through... from my weakest point.. ...i must gain my strength back.. ...i can't have these two people back in my life unless they prove to me that i am dear and not take adventage om me.. ...it pisses me off when they do shit right in front of me on my bed... ..i should have kicked them out right then and there.. ...but mom was sleeping, so there was no way.. ...im never speaking to these people.. ...i feel so weak of a person and i have to gain my strengh back... ..also, to move forward..
peace, love, & light,
-Anna-
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| i think... |
[30 Aug 2006|01:48pm] |
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I think... I like this guy
that lives in my neighborhood and
we have been haning out a lot
lately. What should I do?
♥
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| i want someone... |
[05 Aug 2006|12:29pm] |
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...yeah so i dont really go on this like but
like once a month... i suppose it's better
that way... i dunno.. im really sad that i
have no one to call my own.. im so lonely
and so lost inside almost feeling empty..
i need something to fill the gap in my life.
i suppose i just want to be touched... i love
being touched and i love to cuddle and i can't
exactly do that with any of my guy friends
because they just don't care enough.. i guess..
...and also i think im a little depressed
because i've always been a secret between
some guy and his girlfriend... it sucks.
dear someone,
what should i do???
♥
-Anna-
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| yeah... so it's 7:37....... |
[11 Jul 2006|07:37pm] |
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...and i'm going with michelle,
my new friend... to Phillicia's
new apartment to smoke... should
be interesting... i can't wait!!!
it should be fun!!! WOO HOO!!
I'll let you know how it goes...
♥
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| the trip... |
[10 Apr 2006|01:21pm] |
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ok... so i went down
to alabama and to panama city
during the break... ok so
there were 4 people in
nicole's car and we had
just got finished toking in
her car right after we stopped
at WAFFLE HOUSE! ...then
about 10 min later if that
we get pulled over and we
were like fuck... we are in
deep.... ok... so this cop in
alabama walks up to the car...
ishy was driving and i was
sitting in the front and like
i was so still i looked stuffed...
hahaha... so the cop got her
license and the registration
and ishy was like wait i know
i wasn't going over the speed
limit and i didn't run a red
light either... she asked to
see the speedometer... and the cop
told her... OF COURSE YOU CAN'T!
the cop walks away... we have
the windows down and the car
smells like straight up WEED for real!
ishy's like anna... anna... light
a fucking cigarette... i finally
get one lit... but it was funny
seeing the expression on her face
b/c none of us wanted to get caught.
so then nicole and alvis turn there
heads around and they see like 3
more cop cars... and there was narc
dogs... ...just our luck right???
anyway... it turns out we only got
a warning... ...then about 20 min
later we get pulled over for going
to slow and ishy was like well we
just got a warning for going to fast
so we wanted to be careful... but
the big kicker is when we were going
down the highway and ishy was like
WHAT THE FUCK... how come is keeps
changing from 45 to 65 every so often?
then alvis finally looks up and he's
like are you retarded? he was like you
are only supposed to go 45 when it's
WET! omg... it was one fun night but
we were high as balls.... it was
crazy shit... hahaha...
peace.... oh and green makes you healthy!
: )
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| my high.... |
[04 Apr 2006|10:13am] |
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ok literally i have been
high for like 4 or 5 days
straight... this is crazy...
ok like on thursday night i
smoked some before i went to
bed... then on friday patrick
rolled the "2 CENTURY HITTER"
and there were 9 people cramed
into my small room... and the
blunt went around for a long
ass while... everyone kept
cheif-in it and it went around
about 10 times... it's crazy...
then i went to a concert with
kelsey on saturday... then we
all came back to shea's house
and smoked.... then sunday was
like to worste day of my life...
but it got better cuz i picked up
freda and she spent the night with
me and so did ishy... it was cool..
then we smoked... hahahaha...
then yesterday i smoked 5 times...
first right when we were about to
go to shea's house... freda and
i toked up in chelsea's car...
then some at shea's, then me, nicole,
and freda toked up again before
watching napoleon dynamite...
then patrick and kelsey came
by work... which was so nice...
then they came and picked me up...
and they wanted me to smoke with
them... and then when nicole got
off work we toked again...
...that's a lot of ghanga....
YAY!!! i lot green!
smooches and peace out!
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| kill me now... |
[02 Apr 2006|08:06pm] |
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this has been the worst day/night ever
without question!!!!!!! i hate this shit!!!
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| only lick my dude...Dude she flicked it... don't lick my dude... |
[02 Apr 2006|12:24am] |
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if you are bored that you can't fucking stand it... in the town of alpharetta... you .......SMOKE, SMOKE, SOMKE.....till the day you die... this shit is amazing and unpredictable... it's love... like a dream world... i lwant more of it so i can sake it to BAMA & PC!!!
Awewome...OPPOSUM... and yeah patrick that so does rhyme... i want.... you to want me more and find me more so i reat with you forever... smooches and hugs ...a lot because i will miss you when you go far... like the place beyond us...
I want you more and more each time i come down... it's amazing... and wonderful to see it and smoke it when you have it... i need to leave.... i must go in a misson to clean out the refrigerator...
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| i did this for you... |
[17 Mar 2006|01:53pm] |
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you remember writing this
in my yearbook last
year? what do the
words mean to you?
i hope you have a
great time at swazees.
play your heart out.
i'll try and come but
if i don't make it
i will certianly be
there in spirit...
no doubt... ok?
i miss you.
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| ...the dates. |
[28 Feb 2006|10:41pm] |
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the dates are April 9th, 2005;
May 5th, 2005; February 26th, 2006;
and February 27th, 2006...
these dates have been the most
amazing and the most memorable
...they are ones that I could
live forever... and i want to
live...
...but there's a down fall to all
of this... he is not with me
because, i am his ESCAPE...
bringing him comfort and trust...
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| life is good... |
[27 Feb 2006|10:25pm] |
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yes it's been a great day...
spent it with someone who
was worth it to me...
peace, love, and light...
-Anna-
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| my mind in a discussion... |
[01 Feb 2006|09:35pm] |
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Why must I be so dumb
sometimes? My mother thinks
I must be a total idiot or
something... whatever...
anyway, nicole said
something to me last
night and it made perfect
sense... I really want
a friend a really good guy
friend to love me for me
and she was like well Anna...
WHAT IS IT THAT YOU OFFER
TO THE WORLD? She was like
as soon as you get that
figured out that's what
other people will see
about you and have people
drawn to you...
The truth is... I'm not
really sure how people
view me really... I
don't really care
because I'm pretty
confident with myself
but at the same time
I dont really know what
I offer to the world.
hummmmm...
let me know what you
think...
LOVE...
-Anna-
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| hey you... me... whatever.... |
[18 Jan 2006|09:51am] |
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nothing really has been
going on lately...
ishy has been staying
with me for a while
and it's cool... shes
great... i love her...
i don't really get on this
anymore...
i have to admit... i miss so
many people... i miss everyone
from my past... : (
...for some reason it seems
like they dont care as much...
it kinda dissapoints me...
me and ishy are at my house today...
tehehe!
anyway catch ya on the flip side...
peace love and light!
-Anna-
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| yeah... yeah... |
[02 Jan 2006|12:41pm] |
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B for BOB!!! ...you know... like MARLEY! |
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Hey hey!!! it's been
a while since i've been
here... i'm dropping by.
anyway I had decent x-mas.
Didn't really get anything
I wanted except the thing
mom got me but I can't
figure out how to work
it. Anyway... had a kick
ass new year's eve counting
down... gettin a little
tipsy and high *on life*
hahahaha... anyway, so yeah
that's about it... much love
to all...
-Anna-
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| what do you want? |
[11 Dec 2005|11:55pm] |
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Why do you think it
is up to me? I just
can't do this anymore.
I hate so many things
yet love at the exact
same time. I suppose
you can think of it as
balance, yet I'm not
sure. Is this a good
thing or a bad thing?
...I don't know anymore.
I hate to be the one
confused and flusterd
all my life.. but I
can't help it because
it never fades away.
I feel as though I'm
letting myself down..
yet I don't know why.
It seems like im a
threat for myself.
I want to live by
living not try dying.
I'm dying inside and
I think it's because
of finals. They make
me sooooo stressed
out and I never can
seem to put myself to
focus. I really cant
fail again. I'm
failing 2 classes
already. This is not
a good day. This day
just reminded me of
the past which I focused
all of the bad. Why am
I so negative? Why is
it that I'm so afraid
of trying? Why do I
get so mixed up in
the past and cant focus
on the present or future?
I have so many question
with absolutly no answer.
I know myself yes and I'm
happy with myself but then
why do I have all these
questions?
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| ...life... |
[07 Dec 2005|04:37pm] |
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So yeah... NAHS tonight.
The rest of them get
inducted into our lovely
little society since
I was inducted last year.
...props to me.. I know!
HAHAHA! SO yeah it starts
at 7 tonight.. if you wanna
come... then do it. It's
in the AHS autitorium.
FOOD is available afterward.
...oh yeah ONE TREE HILL
is tonight too. I fukking
love that show. It's my
favorite. WOO HOO, and this
episode should be pretty
sweet. so yeah anywho...
i dunno really what to say
but today was kinda weird
cuz like i spilled my guts
out about cheslea to Ms.
Jackson... yeah her of all
people. I know this sounds
kinda weird but me and my
art teacher are really really
tight. oh and another weird
thing... I'm giving Adrian a
ride home tonight... weird shit.
I dont really every talk to him
anymore because he's soooooo
stuck on his girlfriend and yet
we were like the best of friends
when we were at milton together.
it's weird how friends can do
that to eachother. ..hahaha...
Anyway, so I have a whole load
of things that are due tomorrow.
Much peace love and light.
MUAHHHHHHHHHHH,
-Anna-
Oh yeah... P.S. - Patrick
dyed his hair a fukking
highlighter color!!!!
ugggggggggggg LY!
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